October 5th 4:15AM
I woke up from my sleep. Just like I did every night since the last 3-4 months. It really pains to be a blogger sometimes. When you have something to write on, you are on top of the world. And when you don't you think about it every time you are alone and you feel restless.
Anyways, I checked my iPad and there was this very long message, it was this-
"Hey I know that you're sleeping but I just need to rant bout sth. So… I miss the days when we used to talk like everyday on kik. We were so close I just want you back, you know? I care a damn lot about but I don't think you care about me anymore. I'm thinking that because most of the time you just say 'wow' or stuff like that. Please tell me I'm wrong?"
It was Xena Ofcourse who sent me that. Xena was from Belgium,17 years old, and yes she was one of my 400 kik friends but she was special. She was my friend since a very long time. And maybe I was starting to lose interest in her. I don't know why. I did't have a girlfriend since ages and if there was anything close to it, it was her.................and Sarah. Oh fuck.
June 21st 3:04 AM- "So I'm guessing you found someone else who's amazing to talk to because I can tell you don't really want to me anymore. I loved talking to you and I loved talking to you and I miss you so much and I'll miss you so much. If you still want to talk now or in the future just message me. I'll always talk to you no matter what happens or how much time goes by". That is Sarah and she is one of my kik friends who I have known for a long time.
Well,this is awkward. I've learnt something in life today. It's something that I don't regret about. Love can't be found online. It can't. You can't be in love with someone just by saying "I love you sooo much, I wish you were here blah blah blah" cause honestly I've done that, about 400 times and did it REALLY give me that feeling,which I am supposed to get when you fall in love and the whole world around you turns red, and red rose petals fall on you from the sky and the violin starts playing? For 1 second, yes that does happen, then you realize you are here, sitting on your bed smiling like a complete retard and your mom totally gives you the WTF face. If you are looking for love PLEASE, for the love of god, love me, oki lame joke, but don't love people online. It is cool, for a moment but then you just figure out you are shit. It took me 1 year and 5 months to realize that.
5:19 AM
This is my apology to you, Xena and Sarah. I am very truthful to say this that I wish it would last forever but it doesn't happen. Life is more about living it in reality rather than texting 400 girls. But look at the bright side, you actually influenced my real life. Which is kinda great TBH.
Well,thank you for reading this. Please tell me how you feel about Internet love in the comments and how you felt about the blog. To end this I would like to say......
"Live in reality."
Aaaaaand PEACE!
